Romans 7:21 KJV
21I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me.
Last night was somewhat magical….maybe I should say spiritual so you don’t take me wrong. It was a rough night at first and once again I found myself failing in some way. But once again God the Father reached out to me despite my failure. Fireflies lit up our back yard….something rare in our part of town. Michael and I, sat on the trampoline and watched the “little flashlights” as Michael called them. We both thanked God for reminding us of His love. We needed a firefly night.
I find that no matter how hard I try to do good there is this war inside of me, a force pushing me towards ruin. I am not alone in this struggle. Even the Apostle Paul, the writer of most of the New Testament, dealt with this hardship. I also find that in my quest to know God the Father in a deeper way I often run in the other direction. My spirit longs to truly abide with the Lord but that other part of me is scared to go too deep. C.S. Lewis and Darien B. Cooper explain this phenomenon better than I. Praise God that one day I will lose myself in the ocean of God’s presence and never dabble on the surface again. It seems I will be in Heaven when that happens but I pray to get even a glimpse of what that can be like.
24O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death? 25I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord….
(Pic of Chris and Michael at the beach- above)
Quote from pg 51 of a woman’s devotional (by Darien Cooper) inside “Hinds’ Feet on High Places” by Hannah Hurnard
Sometimes we have difficulty coming to our Father because of an imperfect relationship with our earthly Father or others. We are not sure of His heart toward us. However, we need never be hesitant or fearful to come honestly and vulnerably to our Lord, revealing every minute detail of our beings.
Quotes from “A Slip of the Tongue” (The Weight of Glory) by C.S. Lewis
“This is my endlessly recurrent temptation: to go down to that Sea (I think St. John of the Cross called God a sea) and there neither dive nor swim nor float, but only dabble and splash, careful not to get out of my depth and holding on to the lifeline which connects me with my things temporal.”
“For it is not so much of our time and so much of our attention that God demands; it is not even all our time and all our attention; it is ourselves. For each of us the Baptist’s words are true . ‘He must increase and I decrease.’ He will be infinitely merciful to our repeated failures; I know no promise that He will accept a deliberate compromise. For He has, in the last resort, nothing to give us but Himself: and He can give that only insofar as our self-affirming will retires and makes room for Him in our souls. Let us make up our minds to it; there will be nothing ‘of our own’ left over to live on, no ‘ordinary’ life. I do not mean that each of us will necessarily be called to be a martyr or even an ascetic. That’s as may be. For some (nobody knows which) the Christian life will include many a leisure, many occupations we naturally like. But these will be received from God’s hands. In a perfect Christian they would be as much part of his ‘religion’, his ‘service’, as his hardest duties, and his feasts would be as Christian as his fasts. What cannot be admitted– what must exist only as an undefeated but daily resisted enemy– is the idea of something that is ‘our own’. some area in which we are to be ‘out of school’, on which God has no claim.
For He claims all, because He is love and must bless. He cannot bless us unless He has us. When we try to keep within us an area that is our own, we try to keep an area of death. Therefore in love, He claims all. There’s no bargaining with Him.”
“Law, in his terrible, cool voice, said,… ‘If you have not chosen the Kingdom of God, it will make in the end no difference what you have chosen instead.’ Those are hard words to take. Will it really make no difference whether it was women or patriotism, cocaine or art, whisky or a seat in the Cabinet, money or science? Well, surely no difference that matters. We shall have missed the end for which we are formed and rejected the only thing that satisfies. Does it matter to a man dying in the desert by which choice of route he missed the only well?
It is a remarkable fact that on this subject Heaven and Hell speak with one voice. The tempter tells me, ‘Take care. Think how much this good resolve, the acceptance of this Grace, is going to cost.’ But our Lord equally tells us to count the cost. Even in human affairs great importance is attached to the agreement of those whose testimony hardly ever agrees. Here, more. Between them it would seem to be pretty clear that paddling (near the shore) is of little consequence. What matters, what Heaven desires and Hell fears, is precisely that further step, out of our depth, out of our own control.”
Enjoy the video 🙂 God bless & Remember The High King Lives!~Amber Dover
Restless by Audrey Assad
songs by Anne Walsh: Jesus, Lover of my Soul & Children of the Heavenly Father
Audrey Assad- Restless
songs by Kari Jobe- Love came Down, My Beloved, & Revelation Song
Leigh Nash (former lead singer of Sixpence None the Richer)- Out of my bondage, Be still my soul, & Give Myself to You
Travis Cottrell- Jesus, I am Resting resting, How deep the Father’s Love, & Come Ye sinners poor and Needy
Fernando Ortega- Great is Thy Faithfulness
Big Daddy Weave- Maker of the Wind
Lordsong- Under His Wings
The Praise Baby Collection (it’s actually really good)- Be Unto Your Name
Most of these you can find on Itunes. You’ll have to find Travis Cottrell on Lifeway under Beth Moore’s stuff